My favorite movie scene of all-time is from Walk the Line. It's the scene where Johnny (played by Joaquin Phoenix) is arguing with his wife Vivienne (played by Ginnifer Goodwin). They've only been married for a year or so, and Vivienne is upset because Johnny is always out on tour and never home with her and their baby.
In a fit of rage, he screams "I got you your dream house and your car and all your pretty things! What more do you want?" And then she screams back "I want YOU, John! I want you and all the things you promised me!!"
Seriously, Ginnifer Goodwin should have won an Oscar for that line right there.
In one simple sentence, she echos the desire of every woman's heart - to be protected and provided for, but more importantly to be loved and cherished unconditionally. To be made to feel like she matters; like time spent with her counts for something. It amazes me how many men just don't seem to "get" that. I mean, it's not rocket science.
Anyways, I was thinking about that movie scene last night as I was falling asleep. A few weeks ago, I was challenged by a sermon where the pastor asked if we really, truly wanted God or if we just wanted the things that God can do for us. It's something I've been thinking about ever since. I sometimes get so caught up in the stuff - "God please do this for me, God please bring this into my life, God please help me out in this area" - that I forget to find peace in comfort in God alone. I forget that grace is enough. That God is enough. That even if my life is flat out miserable the fact that I have God as my Lord and Savior is enough. That anything else is just an added bonus.
Of course I want blessings and answered prayers and a happily-ever-after ... but I want to want God more than any of those things. If I'm being honest, I have to admit that I am not quite there yet. I still tend to whine about what I'm "missing" rather than rejoice in what I have - an awesome Savior. This is something that I'm working on.
When God asks me what I want in life, I want to be able to shout "I want YOU, Lord!"
